My husband is talking in church and asked me to send him a little about how being a mother has blessed my life. Of course I got long winded and it ended up being much longer than "a couple paragraphs." Sorry Dal! After I wrote it, I thought I'd share it on my blog :)
Becoming a mother was a life changing experience for me, for the better. Learning to put someones else's needs completely above my own and sacrificing my time, talents, body, sanity, and more to try and be a good mother has been one of the most rewarding processes of my life. It's made me less selfish, more patient, more kind, more loving, and an all around better person. In losing myself in motherhood I have truly found myself and realized who I am and why I am here on this earth. Motherhood has blessed my life in thousands of ways, but I wrote down three ways in particular I have been blessed.
First, it has blessed my relationship with my husband. He made me a mother and has supported me every step of the way, even when that support is long distance. The best part about having my oldest daughter was watching the wonder on my husband's face and seeing him become a dad before my eyes. When I met Dallas and decided I wanted to marry him, I knew that I would be giving my future children an amazing dad. There was no doubt in my mind that he would love them, play with them, sacrifice for them, be patient with them, and be exactly the kind of dad that they needed. Seeing him be exactly that kind of dad has made me love him even more than I did the day I married him. I feel so much closer to Dallas because he is my partner in the biggest project of our lives--raising our children, and he so amazing at it.
The second way motherhood has blessed my life is with my relationship with my parents. I didn't truly appreciate or understand just how much they loved me or how much they sacrificed for me until I had my own kids. I look back on my own childhood with "kind sight." When I think on the times I was being selfish or was mad at them, I see it through the lens of a parent and realize that they were doing their best to be good parents and that they loved me SO much. I appreciate that even though I've left the home and have kids of my own, they still love me that much and would do anything for me, including taking care of me when I'm sick and flying across the country just so they can drive with me the 1700 miles back to their house.
My dad taking a nap with Oaklie
Mom 1991
The third way motherhood has blessed my life is my relationship with my Heavenly Father. "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life." I know the love a parent had for her children, and it amazes and overwhelms me that God sacrificed His son so I can return and live with Him again. I love my children more than seems physically possible, but Heavenly Father loves them and me even more than that. I want my children to love me back, to talk to me, and to listen to me because I truly want what's best for them and want them to be happy. Heavenly Father feels the exact same way about me, but while I am an imperfect being that makes mistakes, He is a perfect God with perfect wisdom and understanding. He wants me to love Him, pray to Him, and listen to His guidance because He knows what's truly best for me and wants me to be happy. Of all the names of God, He has chosen to be called Father because He loves us, cares about us, and would do anything for us, even sacrificing His Son for us.
Motherhood is hard. It's frustrating and dirty and makes for long days and frazzled nerves, but it is so worth it. I feel like for every drop of sacrifice I give, I am given a gallon of blessings. The love of child is one of the sweetest blessings life has to give, and watching them grow and develop and be happy brings me so much joy. President Kimball said something that is so true of parenting, "As we give, we find that 'sacrifice brings forth the blessings of heaven' and in the end, we learn it was no sacrifice at all."